What’s wrong with me?

Stop!!! What’s wrong with me?

Am I desperate? What the f***s going on here!! This is not who I am.

Why is it that there are certain things that keeps disturbing my mind? That interrupts my concentration as I do my daily tasks.

Am I SPO? Are my needs not fulfilled in this aspect of my life?

At this point in my life, I can say that I am already past the adolescent stage. I am more mature that what is normally seen by many, for I know myself better than anyone.

But why is it that my hormones are getting agitated? Whenever my mind wonders it creates these illusionary images that disrupt my attention. Is this why men are sexual by nature because they need to feed their urges? Thus these constitute man as a perverted moral animal?

We are talking about my own integrity and dignity here.

I really need to get a hold of my self, I will not put to waste all the things I work so hard for to achieve be ruined by my own self disrespect.

I am not complacent with the current situation and condition of my earthly life. This is the reason for the daily struggles I undergo just to keep myself at the level of acceptance that this is reality.