closing my eyes - realization

      I was daydreaming during mass that it HIT me, the reasons why I tend to close my eyes; not the normal closing of the eyes but the conscious and direct black out of my panoramic view.

    It has been my response to certain things for many years, not really knowing the reason behind the reaction since I really haven’t thought about it much. I was not inclined to think of such things before; I tried to suppress those thoughts and images.

    But I’m trying to understand myself more and this is one aspect of my life that is also a part of being who I am. I need to accept the fact that this is one step of improving myself, knowing my limitations and also my possibilities.

I close my eyes in an attempt to hinder my vision from seeing the truth, things that would haunt me even until the end of my life. Sometimes I’m afraid to accept that reality is harsh upon those who are not ready to acknowledge it.

    I tend to block my senses so that I would not be thwarted by what I’m seeing/hearing for the reasons that I may be ashamed of what I’m seeing and fearing what I’m hearing. It’s like my defense mechanism towards things that seemingly try to put ruptures in my life. Things that cause me to think and reflect that would eventually lead to either a challenge to face reality or an obstacle to your comfort zone. Call me a coward if you want because I am one, but I am also just human who also fears uncertainty.

    Blocking your senses to hide from the truth is like attempting to impede the self from reality itself thus rendering you to isolate yourself from actuality. All you feel is the isolation of emptiness which for some people gives them comfort and peace. Free from all the harsh things in life, a form of running away from reality.

Merry Christmas

      This yuletide season let us once again gather and celebrate this occasion among our family and friends and catch up on things and remember the old days. To bond and prepare bountiful food that will satisfy the mouth of our love ones. Let us put effort in celebrating this Christmas but let us not forget to always thank the Lord for all the blessings He has showered upon us.        

        As I have always celebrated my Christmas with my family, let us remember that even without the splendid food, lavish decorations and the expensive gifts, what matters most is that we are together as a family bonded by our kinship and love for one another.

        May everyone has a blessed Christmas and enjoy the holidays.      

 Merry Christmas guyz!

blurry eyesight

              I never expected the day would come that I would need eyeglasses; my eyesight has always been fine. I just wanted to buy reading glasses with anti radiation since I’m always facing a computer due to my course.

            The eyeglasses comes with a free checkup, that is when I found out that my eyesight is blurry, I can no longer  see small letters from a distance. But the grado is just minimal. I look geeky, that is what mike said, as if he isn’t one. Well, atleast it looks nice on me and I look more mature. But I will not be wearing it always so that my eyes will not get used to it and rely on it always; just when I’m reading or facing the computer.

AdDU Cheerdance for PSITS 2008

At last, the day has finally come for us to compete against the different school who participated in the PSITS cheerdance competition. The PSITS has been postponed and moved for so many times that we just wanted to be done with it and continue our normal school routines. It was a hot day, but that did not stop the participants from the competing schools to showcase their talents in sports, academics and socio cultural.

We felt nervous before the competition but it was normal to feel that way even if it was not your first time. I told myself to breath and just have fun, even if we don’t win but the experience is self gratifying.

After the cheerdance was over, we ate lunch at Penongs courtesy of our CSSEC. While waiting for our food to arrive we watch the video’s of our performance. I was amaze for the fact that it was actually nice, clean and almost perfect. There were only a few mistakes, few people who got lost, and the timing and execution was in correlation. I have no doubt in my mind that we will be in the top three. 

It was fun, aside from sharing our talents we get to create a bond among our team and forge new friendships along the way.    

Mike’s Birthday

            I got to NCCC Mall late due to traffic but knowing them they are also late (filipino time). I was expecting that most of the IT4 would come, but apparently there was only 4 of us who came (me, gian, and jaque along with harvey). I don’t know if everyone was invited but they know that it was mike’s birthday and we would meet at NCCC or was it just only a few of us that knows, or maybe they have other plans since its Sunday.  

            Well, nanglibre si Mike sa Timezone with his coupon of 1 hour unlimited swiping. Halos lahat na makita namin na pwede ma swipe nilaro namin. Nagtagal kami ni Gian sa dance dance maniac at sa time crisis na many times kami nag swipe, sige na lang tingin at hintay yung iba sa likod namin kasi hindi sila maka swipe. hehe Nung malapit na matapos ang 1 hour cge lang kami swipe ng card kahit hindi naman namin laruin or ibigay na lang namin sa iba.

            May nakita ako na stall ng mga accessories at nakita ko tong wristband na Nike. I thought of buying it as a birthday present for Mike. It was color orange and I gave it to him after we went to the comfort room. Atleast, I think he appreciates the gift I gave him kasi parang ako man lang ang nagbigay ng gift sa kanya. Kawawa naman. hehe.

            After that me, gian and mike went to SM and windowed shop. We ate at Mandarin and talk about nonsense things and nanlibak ug tao which is their specialty.. hehe It was fun. I hope Mike also had fun on his birthday. It was confirmed on his text that he enjoyed it and thanks me for the gift. No prob MIKEy.. basta ikaw.. hehe

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