thoughts . . .

how come when it comes to love, maraming nagpapakatanga or nagpapaka martir?why is it that when we get hurt, we always blame the other person?
we always see their mistakes and lack of effort,
but can we really say we did our part, or there was something we did wrong.
we are blinded by our own judgement(hurt) that we dont see a clearer perspective of the situation.

why do i have to endure this kind of pain? . . (many of us asked and complain about this)

when we get hurt,
we experiences this excruciating pain inside that our heart is being choke/strangled
and is about to explode.

physical wounds would heal eventually,
but internals wounds is not that easy to heal.
maybe in the course of time it would , but it may also be broken again and again.. Damn!!

why do I end up getting hurt when it comes to love,
I try my best,
but why is it that they are never contented of what they have and tend to find others.
they would eventually change their mind and chose me again,
but I have already made up my mind,
I dont think I could trust someone anymore who has lied to me so many times.
im not stupid, ayaw ko magpaka martir,
he’s not worth it.. (Yah!!)
3rd parties are never the issue, its always between the 2 of you..

I took risk already, but somehow even though it didnt go as what I had expected,
im still happy and contented bacause now I know my limitations and capabilities.

hindi ako 24/7 na laging available, may sariling buhay rin ako..
hindi ako chewing gum na pag wala ng lasa itatapon mo na lang..
hindi ako sponge para e absord lahat ng hinanakit mo..
hindi ako vulca seal na gawin mong panakip butas..
hindi ako trophy na para ipagmalaki na nakuha mo at pang display mo lang..
hindi ako Diyos na kayang ibigay lahat ng gusto mo, tao lang din ako tulad mo..
hindi ako bbq na isawsaw mo para lalo magkalasa, makuntento ka kung anu ako!!

in life..
    we bleed knowing we are alive,
    we undergo pain and suffering in the undying struggle to survive.

in the midst of the struggle to pursue life,
there is an undying search for the “one” that would complete us the most.

all I need is someone to accept me for who I am,
accept my weaknesses and imperfections,
someone who is willing to share my joys and sorrows in life,

someone to prove to me that life is worth living.