My Gimik Life!! Uga!!

I somehow mange to kept my new years resolution, that is to lessen my gimik escapades. For the month of Jan and Feb I only went out once per month. This is an improvement even though in the first place I was not a party person until last October when a friend invited me to try something new with my life. I guess I was curious back then and life seems such a cliché and boring that I limit myself to things.

One of the reasons I gimik is to enjoy and have fun with friends and set aside responsibilities for a while. It is not only the socializing part I like but also the atmosphere of the night lights and the beat of heart pounding and body grooving music. I’ve never been drunk cause I don’t want to regret something I might have done due to my unconsciousness and I don’t smoke(but I did try).

Last Saturday, I went to Rizalpromenade the usual place I gimik. I realize that I missed out a lot of things; somehow I feel like a stranger among them that I can no longer relate. It’s nice to meet new people; you can really see that almost everyone knows everybody especially those people who are always present. It’s like a social community there of different people with different characteristics.

But the thing I really don’t like to happen while there which is very much inevitable is being dry(uga!!). I’m satisfied with the socializing, partying, and drinking part. But hmmm… how do I put this into words… lets just say I’m the shy type(hehe).. One of the other reasons I go there which is also the reasons of everyone else is to meet someone there. For me I limit myself, “for your eyes only” (hangang tingin lang ako) I don’t really have that much courage to approach the person. But if the person approaches me that’s a different thing. That’s why I always drink a cold glass of iced tea to quench my dryness, in a way I’m kind of contented but not 100%. I guess that’s one of my problem and weakness, I should develop more confidence in myself. That is one of the reasons why I thought of such a resolution for this year to avoid the feeling of dryness that comes with the feeling of rejection and loneliness.

I just wish that I have someone special, someone who would make me feel wanted, and someone to define my existence. By that time, I could really say that my life is complete and was not put into vain. (Lord, kailan pa kaya yun?)